Wednesday, July 20, 2016

7/18/16, 4:30pm

You loved me like the monsoon loved the insignificant suburban town at mid afternoon in the heart of July. A sudden, steady intensity, a deliberate, blinding love, with thousands of droplets roaring the same simple promise of Forever. Thick with the heat of passion, dense with the sanctity of happy ever after. The world turns white, contained in a violent storm of Now. We are encapsulated in the fervor of Eternity, never wavering under the pillars of thundercloud strength.

I cannot see anything but this moment, you and I, our hearts beating in time to the brutal pitter patter of downpour. Time has stopped as we breathe to the rhythm of the growling grey skies, and of each other. I am suffocated by the humidity of your words, yet I grapple to breathe in more. I struggle to remember a life outside of this propitious, silver whirlwind. I don’t think I want to.


We could have only been evoked by a rain dance, the final resort of a man desperate for love. The universe has worked so hard for us to be, yet in an instant, we are gone—you, are gone. The trees have surrendered their wooden thrones, and the sidewalks guiltily reek of a damp, forgotten romance. Zeus watches, mouth agape, bewildered and inexplicably wounded. When the Sun finally reveals itself again, we dazzle in the specks of flint sparking in the concrete, begging to be remembered. The storm has passed, and nothing is the same.

Monday, July 4, 2016

97 In Between

We parted ways at the center clock
With small embraces
And mumbled exchanges
Sauntering to our numbered platforms
Looking back for a moment
Reluctant yet relieved.
As I stepped onto my train
Whisked away back again
To a sleepy one horse town
I began to wonder
About all the things I didn't say:
Was he closer to his father
Or his mother?
Was he scared of being swallowed whole
In a school of 30,000
Or would he navigate gracefully
Through the crowds of people
Trying their best to make sense of it all
Just like him?
Even though he swears he’s not a messy eater
How many times a day
Does he stain his baby blue button down
With mint chocolate chip ice cream?
Does he watch them splash around
Darting his eyes from left to right
For the money
Or something
Deeper
And bigger
Than all of us?
Why finance?
Does it make his heart sing,
And would he ever consider Wall Street?
What goes on
In that beautiful mind 
As he sits quietly in a corner
With an empty beer can in hand
Waiting for someone to notice him?
Did he know he was the first time
I looked at novelty with eagerness;
Something other than spite?
And lastly,
Did he know
On the subway ride home
Back to 42nd
Where I discovered
That the crook of his arm
Was a place I fit perfectly
That this was the last time?
Did he know it was the end
To something that had not yet begun
Or does he too,
Wonder

About all the things he didn't say?